Like Light...

Am i forever to write here in large intervals of offset times? goodness.
always so much to say,
too many ideas,

but much too sleepy.

goodnight.

I get to see Tyler soon, and i'm so excited. yay!!!!!!!

sorry. no interesting rant today. I'm feeling unmotivated.  

So i've lost quite a bit of weight, 15 pounds.

but of course that is the fifteen pounds i gained in the last 3 years.
that is so friggin lame. so anyway, i weigh 127 now. still a long lonely way to go. sometimes all i want is a little bite of food........

yesterday i did horrible and had some curry and pieces of steak.

I feel so exasperated. why can't i be 110 now?



but on the optimistic part,
HAWAII!

which is, actually, still a little sketchy.
 I just want to stretch out on the beach with a blanket, my mp3 player and my boyfriend and forget that i ever am, is, or was hungry.
I am anxious. I can't wait.
Free me,
the
gluttonous little bitch i am.

another day. another mispelling. 
it's getting better. ....... :) beautiful sunny day.

I haven't posted in a long time... a darn long time. 
It's okay though, not that the world misses meaningless drama... it's all over the web. 

how is everone?

Wowzas has it been a long time

I'm officially single.

Don't know how it happened. I honestly thought that we'd last longer that what we did, but i suppose it can't be helped.

perhaps i should have waited longer in between Shawn and I to let things settle before i moved on. I suppose I'll learn from my error.

In anycase... this ordeal as left me feeling rather weird. weird weird.
is it apathy knocking at my door again?

or is it the shock of freedom that ties me?


love,
yoshi

To ride through Egypt richly dressed and riding in an elaborate, gold sediary.

Lolita No. 18
awesome.

anyway..
It's been a boring night. not sure how i waste 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week. meh.


love
me

Yes, I smoke that much.
It seems i have this manifestation with the desire to personify anorexia. Healthy? No, probably not... but ultra cool? AYE.

I am so very bored. I want to rock my socks off... and someone else's socks off... I am in desperate need to construct this rocking band that has been born in my mind and not yet into reality. Maybe i can cut the image out of my brain, and stick it in a cup of water and hope that it grows into those "Grow your own ..." molds. sweet. a growing band. how pretty.

I want to throw a rock. at someone's head. I want to go find a way to put Hayden Christensen back into his jedi outfit and rape him properly... then he can kill me later on, but you know... (Villans... are so fucking sexy.) oh my... I'm desperate for excitement.
I miss you David! jeeeessus. It sucks hard core living in a place where there are things to do but no one to do them with. ~.~ I am enjoying your CD's, though... Thanks a bunch. I love cirrus, they are just so freaking awesome.

much love,
yoshi

I am very confused.

Your brain: 40% interpersonal, 200% visual, 40% verbal, and 120% mathematical!

Congratulations on being 400% smart! Actually, on my test, everyone is. The above score breaks down what kind of thinking you most enjoy doing. A score above 100% means you use that kind of thinking more than average, and a score below 100% means you use it less. It says nothing about how good you are at any one, just how interested you are in each, relatively. A substantial difference in scores between two people means, conclusively, that they are different kinds of thinkers. Matching Summary: Each of us has different tastes. Still, I offer the following advice, which I think is obvious: Don't date someone if your interpersonal percentages differ by more than 80%. Don't be friends with someone if your verbal percentages differ by more than 100%. Don't have sex with someone if their math percentage is over 200%.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 34% on interpersonal You scored higher than 97% on visual You scored higher than 35% on verbal You scored higher than 60% on mathematical

Link: The 4-Variable IQ Test written by chriscoyne on Ok Cupid

You scored as Form V: Shien. Form V is a powerful style developed by Form III practitioners that preferred a more offensive angle. The defensive nature of Form III dangerously prolonged combat. The maxim "peace through superior firepower," encompasses the philosophy of Form V, also called the "Way of the Krayt Dragon." Anakin and Luke Skywalker are both practitioners of Form V. Form V focuses a bit on having defensive skills, but channelling defence into offence. The example is commonly used that while Form III combatants effortlessly deflect laser bolts, Form V practitioners excel at redirecting the laser bolt toward the opponent. </td> Form V: Shien 89% Form VI: Niman 89% Form VII: Juyo/ Vaapaad 83% Form III: Soresu 83% Form II: Makashi 61% Form IV: Ataru 42% Which Lightsaber form would you use? created with QuizFarm.com

wow. many things going through the head now.

never felt more free.

love and drums.
yoshi

Oh. Yesterday I went out to MCdONALDs and got 2 fruit and walnut salads. I had a 50$ bill, and my total was $6.50; thus equating to change to $43.50? Apparantly not to them. it equals $33.50. In between to driving back to Kyle's Apartment from teh Comfort in (post-consumption of the foods) I noticed the serious lack in cash. Upon re-arrival to MD's:

ME: Hello, I was just here an hour ago, and i was given the wrong change... Is there anyway you could count your drawer?

MD'S: No. They gave you the right change you probably lost it.

me: WELL, YOU CAN COUNT YOUR DRAWER NOW AND I'M GOING TO LOOK FOR MY RECEIPT. I'LL BE BACK IN 5 MINUTES.
----------------- 5 min later

Me: I don't know what is up with you guys, but I didn't even GET a receipt.

MD'S: Well maa'm I'm only 5$ over.

Me: Apparantly your employee doesn't know how to handle money.

Md's: We'll i can only give you 5 back.

Me: WHAT'S YOUR CORPORATE NUMBER??

MD's: What do you need that for?

Me: You know damn well why i need it. I have to do something to get this resolved.

Md's: You know what maa'm first, let me give you your money back.

me: Thank you. good bye

Md's: Wait. Do you want anything? I can get you something.

Me: No thanks, i just wanted my money.

Md's: well I'm going to write you name down and you can get a free fruit and walnut salad next time.

me: It isnt' necessary, but thank you. bye.

WOW. LEARN THESE WORDS PEOPLE. "CORPORATE-NUMBER" Amazing what you learn from working for one... AKA COMFORT INN. It scares ppl shitless.!


I hate Express. it sucks. I quit.
Tomorrow is my interview at HotTopic. yay. it either means more or less pretend-smiles. I can quit that too, though. aah. I love the job industry.

love you bye.

Beautiful, may I put it?
Gaston Leroux is in one word, astounding...
and Andrew Lloyd Webber, a genius.
He makes me want to strip.
How I do love this story—
the plot, the sadness...
enough to cause me permanent ataxia.
The phantom is somnambulism,
the story is sexy.
It makes mine knees weak...
and alas, i walk.
The character personified
reminds me something of a rain-stained
Gorgeous, paralyzing church.
Magnificent and Intelligent.
Oh I long
to hear thine words.
The mood is very sweet
and intoxicatingly lulling.
how is this man so attractive?
(and yet so dreary)
I want my-self a phantom
in my opera.
I want to get dirty.
Let me orchestrate
your eyes,
and you...
you sing me a song.

< Your one (and thankfully) only >
Yoshi

July 1, 1819
My dearest Lady:
I am glad I had not an opportunity of sending off a letter which I wrote for you on Tuesday night - t'was too much like one out of Rousseau' Heloise. I am more reasonable this morning. The morning is the only proper time for me to write to a beautiful girl whom I love so much: for at night, when the day has closed, and the lonely, silent, unmusical Chamber is waiting to receive me as into a sepulcher, then believe me my passion gets entirely the sway, then I would not have you see those rhapsodies which I once thought it impossible I should ever give way to, and which I have often laughed at in another, for fear you should think me either too unhappy or perhaps a little mad. I am now at a very pleasant Cottage window, looking onto a beautiful hilly country, with a glimpse of the sea; the morning is fine; I do not know how elastic my spirit might be, what pleasure I might have in living here and breathing and wandering as free as a stag about this beautiful coast if the remembrance of you did not weigh upon me. I have never known any unalloyed Happiness for many days together: the death or sickness of some one has always spoilt my hours - and now when none such troubles oppress me, it is you must confess very hard that another sort of pain should haunt me. Ask yourself my love whether you are not very cruel to have so entrammelled me, so destroyed my freedom. Will you confess this in the letter you must write immediately and do all you can to console me in it - make it rich as a draught of poppies to intoxicate me - write the softest words and kiss them that I may at least touch my lips where yours have been. For myself I know not how to express my devotion to so fair a form: I want a brighter word than bright, a fairer word than fair. I almost wish we were butterflies and lived but three summer days - three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain. But however selfish I may feel, I am sure I could never act selfishly: as I told you a day or two before I left Hampstead, I will never return to London if my Fate does not turn up Pam or at least a Court - yard. Though I could center my happiness in you, I cannot expect to engross your heart so entirely - indeed if I thought you felt as much for me as I do for you at this moment I do not think I could restrain myself from seeing you again tomorrow for the delight of one embrace. But no - I must live upon hope and Chance. In case of the worst that can happen, I shall still love you - but what hatred shall I have for another! Some lines I read the other day are continually ringing a peal in my ears:

To see those eyes I prize above mine own
Dart favors on another --
And those sweet lips (yielding immortal nectar)
Be gently pressed by any but myself --
Think, think Francesca, what a cursed thing
It were beyond expression!

Do write immediately. There is no post from this place, so you must address Post office, New Port, Isle of wright. I know before night I shall curse myself for having sent you so cold a letter, yet it is better to do it as much in my senses as possible. Be as kind as the distance will permit to yours.
j. Keats

subconsciously trying to kill myself.
3 pots of double strength coffee a day...
1 pack of cigarettes...
Naproxen Sodium/ibuprofen = candy.

Haven't taken liberties with alcohol yet, but i'm afraid i'll skip that and head straight for crack/cocaine.

what a beautiful, black morning.


yoshi

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Where were you born?
Hobbs New Mexico


Where do you live now?


Lubbock, TX

What is your name?

Eugenia

What is your nickname?

Yoshi

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What food do you buy most often?

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What is your favorite drink?

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Ki-lin You scored 70% Esotericism, 34% Power, and 40% Malevolence!

A mythical being of Chinese mythology, comparable with the Western unicorn. Ki-lin personifies all that is good, pure, and peaceful. It lives in paradise and only visits the world at the birth of a wise philosopher. The unicorn, which can become one thousand years old, is portrayed as a deer with one horn, the tail of an ox, the hooves of a horse, and a body covered with the scales of a fish. It is one of the four Ling.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 82% on Esotericism You scored higher than 28% on Power You scored higher than 58% on Malevolence

Link: The Mythological Profile Test written by LacedWithASmile on OkCupid Free Online Dating

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Yoshi (Eugenia) Cho
Birthday:	December twentyseventh.
Birthplace:	New MExico
Current Location:	Lubbock, Texas.
Eye Color:	BRO
Hair Color:	BLK
Height:	5'5"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Ambi... sometimes.
Your Heritage:	Korean
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Flipflops
Your Weakness:	Emotions, Mum, Loneliness
Your Fears:	Emotions, Mum, Loneliness
Your Perfect Pizza:	Olives, Bell-peppers, Mushrooms, thin crust, extra mozarella
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Grow a Lotus!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	LOL!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	must i awake into this cruel cruel world?
Your Best Physical Feature:	hair?
Your Bedtime:	none
Your Most Missed Memory:	Chasing chickens.
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	Group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee
Do you Smoke:	sometimes.
Do you Swear:	fuckno.
Do you Sing:	aaah.... yes
Do you Shower Daily:	nope.
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	am currently.
Do you want to get Married:	hopefully.
Do you belive in yourself:	soemtimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yes.
Do you think you are Attractive:	yes.
Are you a Health Freak:	no.
Do you get along with your Parents:	sometimes. (when i don't get into car accidents, apparantly.)
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes.
Do you play an Instrument:	Yes.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes it sucked.
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes? i have a boyfriend. does it still count?
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	YES! fuck yeah that's some tasty stuff!
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no... :(
In the past month have you been Dumped:	NO!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no.
Ever been Drunk:	yes.
Ever been called a Tease:	no... er.. does internet count? MWAHWAHH
Ever been Beaten up:	yh... eh.
Ever Shoplifted:	when i was three?
How do you want to Die:	painfully.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a doc and an astronaut and a gardner and a mother.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Peru.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	Grey.
Favourite Hair Color:	Dark bro/ black
Short or Long Hair:	both.
Height:	5'8"+++
Weight:	yh! i dunno! jesus fucking christ.
Best Clothing Style:	original.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	uh.. cigarettes and alcohol. 2.
Number of CDs I own:	allllot.
Number of Piercings:	2.
Number of Tattoos:	2 henna
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	don't remember them.
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I'ma going to learn to belly dance!

Like the fall of water on glass,
and the miseltoe under cold...
swain only by the dew,
you are murderous and sold.

Could this glistening nature,
bequeath thine might,
Strengthen the threshold,
and throw me out of sight.

that is nothing but drizzle.
made of this gossamer,
a breath of extentions,
reign Foe and always, a lover.



The Last Lost Song.

A single calculated second,
registry lost at sound.
foumulate a sythesized truth,
never to be found.

Bruised and bled,
to be the only one,
lost at sea,
Heart forever gone.

Are we just another soul,
waiting for a last chance,
To be saddened by circumstance.?

Cant feel the twigs,
growing inside the mind...
Emptiness is a wind,
that makes a man go blind.

Stolen and loved,
polish the pain pristine.
Bind your mouth,
let your wounds bleed free.

Aren't we a soul,
Falling for this chance,
No circumstance.